Coping with pregnancy loss: Chrissy Teigen shares her heartbreaking story
Chrissy penned a lengthy essay about the loss of her unborn son, Jack. She also reveals why she asked her husband to take photos of their final moments together.
"I didn’t know how to come back to real life so I wrote this piece."
Chrissy Teigen has revealed some intimate details about the day she suffered a miscarriage. She was just 20-weeks pregnant at the time.
"I was previously on bed rest for over a month, just trying to get the little dude to 28 weeks, a 'safer' zone for the fetus," she wrote in the essay shared on Medium.
She revealed that doctors had diagnosed her with partial placenta abruption.
"I had always had placenta problems. I had to deliver Miles a month early because his stomach wasn’t getting enough food from my placenta. But this was my first abruption.
"We monitored it very closely, hoping for things to heal and stop. In bed, I bled and bled, lightly but all day, changing my own diapers every couple of hours when the blood got uncomfortable to lay in."
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Chrissy added that she then had a "pretty bad night in bed, after a not-so-great ultrasound".
"My bleeding was getting heavier and heavier. The fluid around Jack had become very low — he was barely able to float around. At some points, I swore it was so low I could lay on my back and feel his arms and legs from outside my belly," she wrote.
The doctor told her after a few nights in the hospital that she would have to say goodbye to Jack.
"He just wouldn’t survive this, and if it went on any longer, I might not either."
She also explained why she asked John and her mother to take the images of her final day with Jack. The 34-year-old shared the images on her Instagram page earlier this month.
"He hated it. I could tell. It didn’t make sense to him at the time. But I knew I needed to know of this moment forever, the same way I needed to remember us kissing at the end of the aisle, the same way I needed to remember our tears of joy after Luna and Miles. And I absolutely knew I needed to share this story."
Some people questioned her decision to share the images publicly, but Chrissy said she couldn't be less bothered with what they have to say.
She hoped her story would help the many women who are going through a similar ordeal.
"I cannot express how little I care that you hate the photos. How little I care that it's something you wouldn't have done. I lived it, I chose to do it, and more than anything, these photos aren't for anyone but the people who have lived this or are curious enough to wonder what something like this is like. These photos are only for the people who need them. The thoughts of others do not matter to me."
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